You’re looking at the advertisement that I created for Stationery Trends Magazine which is a publication that you have probably only heard about if you’re in the stationery business or just a big paper nerd. And in that advertisement, you can get a little sneak peek at on of my new wedding designs in the wedding album that I’m putting together to sell that The National Stationery Show.
This is a big undertaking that I am so behind on. Sorry, the truth had to come out sometime. I barely have time to write this post and I apologize. I mostly apologize to myself for waiting until the last minute to get this stuff done and making it so crazy around here trying to make deadlines. However, I do work very well with deadlines and that’s how stuff does get done around here.
But as I was lying in bed last night, unable to get to sleep, checking the clock to see how few hours there were left until daylight, I was thinking about how happy I will be when this week is over. My designs must be done (more or less) at the end of this week. And I am so excited to be done with this phase and move on to the booth design and execution phase.
But why is a designer so happy to be done designing? How come I am not my happiest in this space? It’s not like I’m unhappy to be designing, I do enjoy it but I am so ready to stop. The creative process is exhausting, draining and excruciating at times. I know, I’m complaining a little too much, it’s not that horrible.
But it is hard. The designs that I put out there are like my children. I need for them to be a great representation of myself and my abilities. I need for people to want to buy them so that I can eat dinner and pay the mortgage. There is a little pressure here. Nothing I can’t handle, but pressure none the less. And I realize that there is much less presure on designing the booth and that is why I can find excitement there. The booth is transient. It will be over a in few days and it doesn’t really matter if it isn’t perfect. (please remind me of those words in a month when I’m freaking out about the booth)
Don’t get me wrong, when the wedding album is done and presented, I will be a proud momma, beaming from ear to ear. It’s just hard to see that moment when I still working on it.
Okay, I think that’s it. Back to designing.